Hi everyone,
I'm sorry if my journals are rather sad at the moment, I'm just going through alot and every one keeps piling things ontop of me its just one thing after another. I know, I know its life. But, I'd just like some breathing space every now and then.
Well, I could sit here and ramble on about the bad things, but truth is I don't want to. I had a fucking two hour break down to Mayu the other night and I'm trying to sort out from there.
There's so many things to deal with all at once that I get confused and overwhelmed and just want to shut off.
Thankfully, I have some amazing friends to help me pull through, as well as Mayu. And yes, I'm going to mention them because these people have been here for me <3
Adz, Sora, Emma, Andie, Jack and Elmo. And no they aren't in order lol.
I've been hiding on and off whats going on and whats wrong but also been talking to them at the same time just in different bits so all together they're helping me through.
Some have gone home for Christmas already and I truely do wish them the best of times for the holidays.
So. Good things.
Without going into detail a bad thing turned good and with a bit of luck I'll be able to buy Lily's body.
Emma has left her Euclase with me so I have been able to make custom trousers for the clawed god <3 (I'm going to miss him when he goes lol) and will be selling them shortly on Liquid Sugar.
Not so good is my routine didn't last long, but I printed off an inspirational message to myself (in short, get the fuck up) so I try and adhere to it. And yes, its gone 7am so I'm sure you're thinking it must be working but no. I've been up since half five.
I've done alot of work on Ongaku there are tons of updates buzzing around the forums. If you like J Rock its really worth a look!
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I've been sewing dungarees.
I okayed it with Sora to give her, her Christmas pressies in January when I'm finally going down to her house! I need to start saving for that and for going to see Annie for her 21st <3
Mayu and I finally joined facebook, only Mayu's addicted to the games.
I got two new games for my birthday and I'm officially addicted to them both.
After I've finished writing this I'm going to go downstairs, make some tea come back up and carry on playing Star Ocean Second Evolution, Kath bought it me for my PSP I also bought myself (out of birthday money cause Mayu made me) Tales of the world, its great <3
Later today Mayu and I are going to Borders as its closing down forever I still have a gift card with money on it I want to spend. We may also go food shopping, we dont need to get much but still. Cant live on air.
I'm due to go to Wales for Christmas and I'm taking Mayu with me, you'd think this would be a good thing and in a sense it really is. I'm just concerned as to how my mum will be : / She doesn't approve of me being happy it would seem.
Anyway, tea is calling and I'm actually feeling positive despite the really early start. Typing all this out helps me feel like I'm happier, so yes I know, keep focusing on the positives and not the negatives.
Hopefully I'll be in the mood to try drawing today. I want to draw Adz his Winter pressie <333
Take care every one ^^
Have a lovely Christmas :3
Peace and love
Syryn